Anyone who knows me know that I am an avid coffee drinker. With my crazy life, I tend to drink 2-3 cups per day, with each “cup” being at least 16oz. My water and coffee intake could run a race. I decided it was time to let go of the joe. By 2:00pm on day one, I had a pounding headache, but I was determined to stay focused on my goal to quit. So I went to bed early hoping it would all be better in the morning.
The next morning as I attempted to open my eyes, every part of my head and left shoulder burned. This was worse than a migraine feeling. I could not believe that I was literally going through withdrawals like this. And then me being such an empath, all I could do was imagine people trying to quit smoking or doing hard drugs. Those poor people!
If they could do, then so could I.
So I got up and showered, despite all the pain I was in. Day three was even worse than the day before but day four there was finally some relief. Praise the Lord! I had made it, I swore that I would never drink coffee again. Fast forward to day ten. I have more responsibilities at work, I am in the middle of teaching at Vacation Bible School, and literally I am so tired. All I want is coffee. I am trying so hard to not drink any but all I can imagine is how much better I would feel with just one cup. But I was going to stay strong. I can do anything with the help of God.
I lasted fifteen days before I gave in. It was the day my new boss was starting. I had been up late writing as usual since starting my blog and I was exhausted. I also had a babysitting gig. So I decided to go with harm reduction and I stopped at Starbucks for a grande instead of a venti. Life was good. Mommy was happy. But most of all, I felt prepared for the day!
The lesson for me is, at this point in time I’m not going to restrict myself from something just to prove a point. I’m balancing life. I’m learning to love, not only myself, but all people. If coffee is my vice, then I will enjoy it. It’s not cocaine and I am not causing myself hurt or pain to others by drinking it. So drink the coffee, have the glass of wine, just do not let it consume you!